Sunday, December 12, 2010

I miss you...

Lately I've been hearing a lot of talk about missing people. I guess it has to do with the season. Its made me think again about missing people. I don't know why and I don't understand it but I don't miss people. I don't miss people. I used to miss my family all the time as a child. I remember crying myself to sleep in Iceland missing my grandparents and then in converse I would cry myself to sleep when I was in France missing my parents. I've spent my entire life (save one Christmas when we were all together) away from someone I love. This is not something I'm bitter about, just a reality I've lived with for 26 years. I don't know anything different. And now that I live in Greece I'm away from my entire family and friends all the time. Also working with Hellenic Ministries I've seen a lot of people come and go. Some I have come to love and others whom I've merely enjoyed their company, but everybody eventually leaves... or I leave. As a result of this knowledge I don't invest myself fully in the people who are around me making the separation easier. I think this is a TCK trait. I've heard other TCKs say that. I'll be open and cheerful to everybody and I love people easily but I don't allow the roots to go too deep. Maybe it's not real love then? I don't know. Yet I would do anything for a friend in need.

All I know is that I live in the moment. I cherish my past and look forward to the future when I can be reunited with friends and family. To love, speak and cry together once again. Leaving was easy when I was younger as I knew I'd be back soon but now it has become a difficult thing for me as I never know when I'll be back to a specific place. Also a reality I face every time I leave is the question of whether or not this is the last time I see a person. Especially for my family as they are not believers. That reality scares me more than anything. When I leave believers I have no doubt that I'll see them again and take solace that we'll have all eternity together. But when I leave a place I'll experience excruciating pain and cry a while but then it's over and I go back to the phone. I take comfort and solace in a digital image and VoIP. And then it's all about the moment again. What I'm doing now. Yesterday was wonderful, today is amazing and I never know what tomorrow will hold.

I'll have nostalgic moments like everybody else but they are only fleeting moments. If I want to talk to somebody I know I can always pick up the phone and call. Facebook and Skype have made it easy. If I think of someone I go to their facebook page and drop them a quick line. Or I use skype to call. The internet has made the world even smaller than before... something I'm infinitely thankful for.

Please whoever you are friend, know that I love you. This does not mean that our friendship is any less real or deep. It just means I have a coping mechanism that is different from yours. If I allowed myself to miss anybody I would have to miss everybody and I don't know if I could cope with that.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

A weekend of disasters

I'm part of the Morning Star crew. I go up on weekends to take care of teams that want to come for a night or two on board. This includes cooking and taking care of the basic needs.

This time was no different except that our team was a group of 20 teenagers and Neil, their youth group leader. Piece of cake, right? Except for one little detail... the boat is made to cater to groups no bigger than 16 people... including the crew. In this instance we had 24 people including crew... as you can imagine that might create certain... challenges. The first is getting such a large team up to the boat. Everything was organized. We were going to load everybody up into three vans. Jed was supposed to drive a van we've lovingly dubbed the 'Brown Bomber' while I was supposed to drive HM's van and Neil would drive his. So far so good...

The day started off great. I got all my work done and left the office in good time to make it to the Bible School by 17:00, which was our meeting point. As I drove into the parking lot I noticed that the HM van was nowhere to be seen. This didn't worry me at first as the 'Brown Bomber' was there and no Jed so I just assumed that Jed was on his way with the other van. 17:15 and Jed was still not there. As I was about to call him one of the kids told me that he was inside. Now I was worried. Jed came out and looked utterly bewildered at the fact that I didn't have the HM van o.O uuuuhhhh What?!?!?! Since Andrew was supposed to have made sure the van was there, I called him. When I told him what was going on all I could hear was silence and then an "Oh shoot!" A few phone calls later we found out that the van was actually at Alex's. So we piled everybody into the two available vans and my car and drove up there. We switched cars and everything was great again.

We all left in convoy, Neil at the head followed by Jed and then me. At a t-junction Neil turned left but Jed having arrived moments later turned right! And since I was following Jed I turned right. As we arrived at the bottom of a hill Jed called me and told me he had no idea where Neil was and which way to go. So we called Neil and found out that he was back at Alex's and waiting for us there! He'd realized he lost us and turned back. Well, we had a slight detour to make as the street we were on didn't allow for any left- or U-turns. We were forced to drive down a ways before we could turn back. 15min later we got back to Alex's. At this point we were an hour behind schedule, not great since we like being on time. We drove down some back roads and picked up another kid at a fuel station. Finally we were on the road! An hour and a half behind schedule! Oh well.

We got to the boat and while Andrew and Jed were getting the team settled I started cooking. Jed had done the shopping and told me that I was to make hot dogs and french fries... except he had forgotten the fries. No problem! We had a whole bunch of instant mash potatoes on board and so I just planned on cooking that instead. As I was poring the powder into the boiling water I noticed something crawling around in it. There were bugs in our instant mash!!! Shoot! That went overboard! Upon inquiry Jed told me that there wasn't supposed to be any salad with this meal. So I had no salad, no fries, no mashed potatoes and 20 hungry teenagers with only two hot dogs per person. Andrew and I looked at each other and said, 'pop corn!' So that's what we did. We served hot dogs with pop corn. The kids had a field day with it. They were putting them in their buns and just really enjoyed themselves. Few! Saved. After dinner, when I finally got to my stuff and found the menu I realized that I was supposed to have made a salad with the meal!!!! Which, as Andrew said, would have made it a meal! What else could go wrong???

After dinner the team decided to go for a swim! It was 1 am, freezing cold outside, in the middle of November! They were crazy!!! Well if Neil said it was fine, it was fine with us. I boiled some water so that the kids could at least rinse off with something warm. As I was getting the bucket ready I accidentally pored boiling water on my hand... AAAHHH! The rest of my evening was spent with my hand in a bucket of cold water. Later that evening as I was trying to fall asleep my hand felt like it was on fire, quite literally. I tossed and turned till 4:30 trying to 'forget' about my hand. By the end, in total desperation and in an attempt to forget the burning sensation, I started playing video games on my cell phone. Hallelujah it worked. I finally fell asleep at around 4:45.

Breakfast was perfect. We compensated beautifully for the previous night's dinner. Neil led us in devotions and then I got started on lunch. I must admit that I'd never cooked for such a large team on board before. Cooking spaghetti for 24 people in a small kitchen is not as easy as it sounds.... I burned the pasta. Who burns pasta?!?!?! For crying out loud! Praise the Lord we had a second team coming the next day and Jed had done shopping for both teams at the same time. I grabbed the next day's pasta and cooked that instead... in two pots. Needless to say lunch was an hour late. LOL! Praise the Lord, this was the last thing that went wrong as we left an hour later... LOL

So we all messed up at some point that weekend but as a team we worked great together and kept things together. We had a blast and in the end we have a great story to tell! :D If you actually read the entire story, I'm impressed and hope you enjoyed it :o)